Who am I? I am the seeker and the sought. Once upon a time, I was a devout Christian, at least, I thought so. Now, I am not sure that was ever the case. I grew up in the church of a conservative denomination: the kind that would condemn me for writing this blog. I would have quite self-righteously condemned myself. At some point, I became a seeker. This doesn’t happen until you become convinced that you do not have all the answers. In my case, that meant losing a lot of debates with people who were smarter than me.
Now, I am the sought. I am not searching for religious truth as much as I am searching for myself. I feel that I have made the journey all the way through my religious tradition, but I am not certain of where that has led me, or who I am as a result of it. If theism defined my religious life, then non-theism will equally define my non-religious life. I just don’t know how to define that life yet.
I post frequently. In those posts, you will learn a lot more about me than you will in this section. In my post-religious life, I find myself both angry and relieved, and more than a little afraid. I am angry at what I consider to be religious abuses perpetrated against me from the time of my youth, and frankly, against most everyone. My writing sometimes reflects that anger. I am relieved that I have made the journey through my tradition, and am anxious to see what’s next. Finally, I am filled with a new kind of trepidation. Since I have spent all of my life in the religious world, all of my friends and family are religious people. I fear the heartache and disappointment I will cause to those who thought they knew me as I come out of the theistic closet. I suspect I am about to find out the hard way if I have any friends as I go public with my post-religious life.
In one, final, desperate moment of retreat back to my old comfort zone, I wish I could ask you to pray for me. But, alas, such an act holds no expression in my post-religious reality. I ask that you follow this blog, encourage, and help me find myself. With any luck, this blog will do the same for you.